aint done this in a while

Okies well its been a good 3 months since iv put in a post on here, which really isnt that good.
This term has definately been different. Times and projects seemed a bit different. For the first 4 weeks all i had to do was my website(betnx.co.uk). My original plans were very restricted. Based on alot of grids and styles that were just not me. It wasnt atall creative and was very dull. Think once again i was just creatin what i thought my tutors wanted, not what i wanted.
But then in Actionscripting, when given the task to create another site i chose a completly different style, something more my style, for an intelligizer site(fictional conceptual company created by myself and Mathew Andrews). But there was something alot nicer about this site, so iv decided to push on with this. I just need to arange sounds for all of it, re-do the gallery, and try to shrink it a little.
Next on the plate was the Site/city/place task. My original group was good, but there wasnt many ideas flowing. So im now working with phil to make the hand(student mag/brochure) a reality. Its definately early stages and needs a heavy comitment to, still need to find out printing prices and co-operation from 1st and 3rd years, but think we can really achieve something from this.
Then there was the ISTD project of timelines. There was a bit of hesitation whether my project adresses the requirements and to be hjonest its still a bit all over the place. ITs a very conceptual design, somethng that would be hard for me to actually create a working model of, but would be sweet if i coould. The main problem is i keep forgeting type as the main point. Originally it was the font was dependent on the sound. Now you're destroying a bogstandard font. Its just hard to use a variety of fonts, and even hard to find a family of fonts that would cover the 120+different notes and strumming. ITs a head scratcher again.
From the start of this projec i didnt think that i could produce something good enough to actually be entered, which i know isnt the best frame of mind for a student, wanting to aspire to great things to be in. Felt a bit lost this term. DEfinately the fact taht i have just over a year left is scaring me. I have no certainty of where im going after here. Id love to become an imagineer but got a long way to go. Iv written to a few imagineers and had a few good replies, its just obvious that if im not a U.S. citizen its very hard for me too get into it. ID love to do the college program but its imposible for me to get into it. My only option is the WDWIP program, but it would mean living away from here for a year. Its my dream to work there, but i wish i could bring the friends and bonds iv made here with me. just need to sort stuff out.
Ramble out~~~~~~~~~